Part Two – “Dr. Cochran Changed My Life”

Mr. B’s story, continued…

After realizing it was nearly impossible to work (as a programmer) remotely, I had to find a solution. I knew what that solution was, but did not have the mental focus in which to do it. I knew I wanted to be writing more, and I also knew I had the tools to write and make money. The problem: The lack of focus due to back pain was unbearable. Really unbearable.

While visiting a friend of a friend, I saw a book on her coffee table titled, “The Opiate Cure”. The cover and title intrigued me, so I asked, “What is this book about?”. She replied, “He’s my doctor. Robert Cochran, and he changed my life”.

I picked up the book off the table and read the first few pages. When I left her home, I stopped at a traffic light and pulled over. I logged into Amazon Kindle Books and bought The Opiate Cure, written by Dr. Robert T. Cochran Jr. and began reading it the moment I returned home.

By the end of the following day, I had been unable to put the book down. Is it the best book I’ve ever read? No, but it’s not meant to entertain. It’s meant to educate. And, if your’e a sufferer of chronic pain, this is some damn good reading. What the book IS, is a series of case-studies written by Dr. Cochran explaining somewhat a “before and after” scenario for each of the patients he treated.

Here’s the thing that kept me glued to his book – Similarities. In almost all of the examples and stories written about the patients in his book, I could relate (directly relate) to nearly all of them.

Here’s why:
If you suffer from chronic pain, and yet the diagnoses or origin of your pain is somewhat mysterious? (AKA: “Fibromyalgia”) Then, you know that pain of this nature moves in cycles. But, what are the cycles? Daily? Weekly? Monthly? In my case, it’s a bi-weekly or monthly cycle. At least twice per month I have a series of “bad days” in which my pain is 5x worse than normal. It’s bad enough on a “good day”, but the cyclic bad pain days are awful. But here’s the kicker – The emotional state that comes with this pain (or, vice versa, the pain that comes with the emotional state), is well, awful.

I hadn’t realized it until reading his book, but I quickly caught on – Bi-polar and chronic pain work hand-in-hand, almost feeding off of each other. I immediately noticed that my “bad pain days” were also clouded with depression and mood swings. Feelings of inadequacy, sadness. Again, depression. When those feelings are present AND your’e in pain, your mental focus is garbage. In my case, there was no way to transition into the career I really wanted, because only once every third Sunday did I have the mental clarity and focus in which I could creatively write. So, for the time being, my career as a writer was shut down.

Again, reading the book, almost in a frenzy due to the unbelievable similarities in the cases noted in his book, I was realizing that there was a very good chance I suffer from bi-polar disorder. I didn’t want to belive this to be true, but when you’ve read 50 case studies by a doctor who focued on this very thing for over 20 years, you can’t help but take note. I had to at least be willing to admit, there was a strong possibility that I suffer from bipolar disorder, and my pain in moving in cycles with this disorder. To make things worse, it seemed to be happening more frequently.

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